T'Sal's Diary

Hi, there. Yep, I am still alive, even though my LJ account was dead for very long time. I got very lazy so I nearly don't write even on my Czech blog. There were many changes in my life and it could be ve~~~ry long post about it, but I don't have time for it so this time only in brief (but it will be still little bit long XD). I believe that my last post (in the far, far away past) was about my failing in entrance exam for Japanese and English philology. That summer wasn't very nice for me and I can say it was the worst time of my life when I had to search for work in area where was always high unemployment and only with a grammar school... I hate the situation, but I was trying hard to put up with it somehow.

However, I was always a child of luck. Early in September I got a letter from the university I had been trying to get in that I was accepted on second appeal. For a change, that was the happiest moment of my life. For the first time I really cried from happiness. And so I entered University in Olomouc, the city on the other end of our republic than where I had lived with my parents. I moved there and now I live in apartment with other nine students. It's better than it sounds, really XD I am in room for two persons. My first roommate was horrible. She never cleaned so there wasn't only big mess (I wasn't sure which colour has our carpet until she moved away), but there was also much of dirt, which I simply wasn’t able to clean because of hers stuff. It was disgusting, she was disgusting x_X Fortunately, she left the country in December and I was there alone until this September. My new roommate is a nice girl and I have no problem with her. Good for me, ne? XD

In matter of Olomouc, I love this city. It's so beautiful! And its atmosphere is totally different from that in north of Czech Republic, where I lived until my university entrance. The city gave me new energy and taught me that I can love some place from first sight to eternity. I liked my home town too, now maybe more that earlier, but in the different way. I like remembering it, however I don't want to go back and live there again. I want to stay in Olomouc, with its unique historical centre, beautiful parks and many, many churches...

But now something about my studies. I am not an excellent student. I am so far from being like it that it sometimes scares me. It's not that I don't like Japanese or English less than earlier, I find the subjects really interesting, but I am horrible lazy. The laziness isn't only matter of my activity on LJ, it's about my whole life now. I can't push myself to study hard and do everything for good study results. Finally, I have what I wanted, but I am risking that I will lost it again. I have got to the 2nd year only because they lower the required number of credits for the conditional passing into other class this year. I didn't pass three exams last year, two from Japanese and one from English. I have to pass them this year so it's not sure yet that I will continue studying there. I have to do something with me, really x_X

And that's all for now. I know, not very happy ending, but I hope next time it may be better XD See you later.

(And sorry for my horrible English. Last year, it was only about listening and reading in English, but no active using of it x___X)

I am not very active and sociable person, so it is unusual I take part in some event. But in this summer there was so much to doing! Ex-class meetings, lolita meeting, otaku's convention and visiting my friend x_X

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This post will be full of rightful self-pity, depression and stupid rubbishes, so I advise not reading this shit. I wrote it there because no-one of people around me probably read this journal. I only want to talk out everything somewhere without uneasiness somebody close to me will know it…

Well, my attempts to translate something from Czech into English ended in a total disaster every time, but in spit of it, I tried to translate one of my short stories. It is fan fiction about Buck-Tick and it is a drabble (short-story about 100 words). I wasn't be able to keep the form, but I think that it is the smallist fault, which I made ^^;

Now I have this beauty as my wallpaper. It is pity that I can't materialize him in my bed T__T I am so lonely there...only me and my cuddly puppy >_<
It is not fair! T_T

Once upon a time there lived one little beautiful and perfect mouse. Her only joy in life was her little magic music box. She carried it with her every time and everywhere she came, because it helped her calm down in difficult and sad situations.
But one day, the music box broke down.

Finally, I downloaded Labyrinth and what more, with Czech dubbing! I am so happy! I already loved this film as a child, because it is so beautiful and fairy-tale-ish story, but I think that I can appreciate that fully as late as now.

It is story about girl Sarah, who musts baby-sitting her younger brother Toby. Toby makes her angry and so she says that she wants goblins to take him away. She doesn’t know that there are really goblins. They kidnap him to the castle of goblin's king Jareth. Sarah wants to get her brother back, but Jareth refuses it. She musts come through a dangerous labyrinth to getting in castle, which is in its middle, and saving his brother.

The last time, I promised that I would write there more often and... I didn't manage it again ^^;

I already wrote about my weekend job, but I am going back to it now. I have been working there over one month and now I am waiting for my first salary. I hope that I get it soon, because my sister, who worked for the same company in August, was waiting for two months! I think that it isn't normal.

I have suspicion that I begin hate this work x_X The early getting up is going to kill me. I am glad that I have free Friday at least. Yes, I know that other people have it more difficult, but I am so lazy and I am not used to it, so I spend the most of my time by sleeping. In my opinion, the work itself isn't so much tiring as the getting up and the waiting for bus. I have 2 or 3 free hours between finishing of cleaning and arriving of bus. There is no one other way how I could get home >_<

In school, it is also complicated. I don't know why but I have always had some problems with my teachers of English - at the grammar school there was one, who I couldn't stand, and now there is someone else. I study one-year course of English and there are two teachers. One is perfect. She explains everything so obviously that I don't have any problems with new stuff and her lessons are enjoyable.

The second one is her exact opposite x_X She has only state examenation, so she knows English well, but it definitely doesn't mean that she can teach. She already confused me several times when we did with her something what we had already learned with the other one. I don't like her as a person too. Unfortunately, I can't hide something like that so I had word with her, because I said aloud something what I should have kept to myself ^^;

But I like the current state more than former situation. Our enmity is open and it is something with which I am able to work. Before it, when we played that everything is ok, it was for me so uncomfortable.

Heh I am really conflictful person, but I like it XDD Poor people by my side...

I took me several hours of work but I have finally finished my list of anime. I didn’t know neither what I had and what no, so it happened that I downloaded two series which I already had x_X It seems that I already own about 150 anime o_O But I have seen only few of them. Thanks of it I found out that I doesn’t have 10 series complete. But I know where I can find it. Only one is for me unavailable – Guyver – I liked this series but I can’t find it anywhere T_T

The other wonderful news in my life is fact that I am probably allergic to gummy glove which I use in my weekend job. I clean changing room in one section of local mine. It is really perfect – Shall I let erode my hands by plastic or depurators? >_<

After very, very long time I wanted to listen to something different than B-T (Yes, it is strange, but it happened to me). I was so lazy to find one of my DVDs with music, so I sought trough my PC where I found Pride of Mind – a band where sang Klaha before Malice Mizer. Their music isn’t always my exact style, but some songs are good (for example Salome). Klaha has beautiful voice, which I very like. Because of it he is on the second place in my chart of vocalists (the first is Atsushi naturally) in spite of it, he isn’t so much talented. Yeah, my approaching to music is unusual…

I am here again. One of my friends said once that the bishies like those, who are drawn by Ayano Yamane, don't exist in real live. WTF?! I don't believe it! If it is a truth I will never find some boy-friend, because I want only a bishie XD Than I remembered Sakurai Atsushi!
Did you also notice that he looked like Fei-Long in the beginning of the 90's?

Don't they look similar?

Wah, I am so lazy to post here something! My Czech journal is full of entries, but there is it empty ^^; So, I try it again with my English journal.

Yesterday I was be able to download the new album of Buck-Tick – Tenshi no Revolver. The link for download was on that pages only for while, so I was lucky that I checked my live journal communities nearly every 5 minutes.
I am so happy, that I can listen to new songs of my most favourite music band. It was for the first time when they released something and I already was their fan (if I don’t count singles Rendezvous and Alice)! The waiting for it was sometimes horrible, but on the other side the listening of the Tenshi no Revolver make me now happier.  

I can’t write about music, but I try it.